*christmas break*

its finally Christmas break!! i am so ready for snow and time off of school! i cant wait til christmas day! and new years eve im going to the party @ church for jr. high. im excited=]=]lol. well if i dont get to see you before the holidays Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!
-kirsten

*love for an angel*

last september my uncle passed away one the 9th. he was diagnosed with muscular distrophy when he was 8 which in his case he couldnt walk. he had a wheel cair and a special van with a lift so he could get in & out easily. i remember being at my dads house and it was over turkey trot weekend. my mom called me so i went outside to get service. he had been sick since april making trips back and forth to the hospital. he lived with my grandma and his service dog Gina. but anyways i answered the phone and my mom had told me that Doug had passed away. it was hard we stayed on the phone for 5 minutes without saying a word. i went in the house and my dad talked to my mom and she told him. i stayed the night with my dad that night instead of going home. the viewing was long and never ending. the funeral was at our church it was hard watching him be taken out of the church knowing he'll never go back in. over thanksgiving this and last year me, mom, alyssa, and grandma went to eat and then to visit his grave in vincennes. its gorgeous now with the flowers and ribbons that Diane Lengacher made for us. he was a huge fan of the stl. cardinals and the dallas cowboys. we still have Gina she is no longer used as a service dog though. she was confused when he passed away, she knew he was gone but she didnt understand. i remember getting phone calls late in the night/ early in the morning. one night grandma was @ the hospital and she called us @ 1 in the morning and said he had stopped breathing. i just felt this huge sickness in my stomach. i was so scared thinking "why is this happening to us?" grandma always said that the blue streaks in the sky is doug running. we know that he is running the biggest race ever and he isnt going to stop.

*RIP Doug Edwards

9/9/07*

*summer softball*

today was so crazy!! we had a 2 hour delay to start with..i was sitting in math class and i thought of jim. i thought about how ill never get to talk to him, how he'll never hug me again, how he'll never get to tell me what im doing right or what im doing wrong in softball, or how ill just never get to see him anymore. he was my softball coach this summer. it was the year i came back because last summer i quit. i have never had more fun out on that field because him & brittany made it the best season ever. going up to vincennes and playing in their tourney was crazy and very emotional. it was the last inning and we were down by two to make it to the championship game. diane hit it out to center field all the way to the fence and someone was on 2nd base. they both made it home and them the ump calls diane out because she threw the bat. we were all screaming our heads off so happy until jim came over and told us. everything just went down there. there were alot of parents cussing & just about ready to be kicked out. we all went back to jims truck under the shade. by the time everyone got home we got a phone call saying that the umpire made a bad call. obviously, we already knew that. but they asked if we wanted to go back to play the championship game. we said no though. but jim and brittany were awesome coaches. i had a great year coming back. RIP Jim Miller our love for you will last forever

-kirsten

the nightmare i cant wake up from..

monday morning @ 1:30 our family woke up to the call about jim miller's death..i was laying in bed and i heard the phone on speakerphone..i heard alyssa go into the living room and i got up and went in there..my mom told me that jim had a heart attack and died..i just felt all the memories go through my head and just started crying..i didnt get much sleep i was up for hours just crying and remembering the memories of softball, him making ice cream, t.p.'n, parties, and just talking with him..i called my dad and told him..part of me just wants to believe hes still here. i really wish he was. i was so mad @ god for doing this to us. but i prayed alot and i know that one day again ill get to see him and his full-of-energy self. monday mornin we didnt go to school we stayed with baleigh all day..monday evening baleigh wanted to go to basketball practice so she went..at the begining of practice me and olivia broke down crying..at the end of practice when mark said something we all started crying..tuesday we went to school..wednesday we went to school and rode the bus to the church for the viewing later all of our loogootee friends came and we waited in line with them. it was very overwhelming..thursday we didnt go to school because of the funeral.. it seemed like it wasnt real..it still doesnt feel like its real. but i know in my heart god planned this to happen the way it happened..i know that he has a plan for all of us and it wont be easy. jim fought a good fight. hes in a better place now.. we love and miss you jim. rest in peace. the memories we have with you will always be with us.

-kirsten