Saturday, November 8, 2008

the nightmare i cant wake up from..

monday morning @ 1:30 our family woke up to the call about jim miller's death..i was laying in bed and i heard the phone on speakerphone..i heard alyssa go into the living room and i got up and went in there..my mom told me that jim had a heart attack and died..i just felt all the memories go through my head and just started crying..i didnt get much sleep i was up for hours just crying and remembering the memories of softball, him making ice cream, t.p.'n, parties, and just talking with him..i called my dad and told him..part of me just wants to believe hes still here. i really wish he was. i was so mad @ god for doing this to us. but i prayed alot and i know that one day again ill get to see him and his full-of-energy self. monday mornin we didnt go to school we stayed with baleigh all day..monday evening baleigh wanted to go to basketball practice so she went..at the begining of practice me and olivia broke down crying..at the end of practice when mark said something we all started crying..tuesday we went to school..wednesday we went to school and rode the bus to the church for the viewing later all of our loogootee friends came and we waited in line with them. it was very overwhelming..thursday we didnt go to school because of the funeral.. it seemed like it wasnt real..it still doesnt feel like its real. but i know in my heart god planned this to happen the way it happened..i know that he has a plan for all of us and it wont be easy. jim fought a good fight. hes in a better place now.. we love and miss you jim. rest in peace. the memories we have with you will always be with us.
-kirsten

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